Day 1:
I plan to not eat the whole day today. I try to find out if anorexic is in genetics or from surrounding. I also wanted to know how many days can I go without eating any meals and just drinks plenty of water.
At,
7:00am - Wake up and prepare myself to class. I'm very determine to accomplish my goal today (not eating any kind of food). Thus, after taking my morning coffee, off to class I go.
8:00am- Waiting for the bus to come. Board it and reach faculty after 15mins.
8:15- Having OS class. Lecturer arrived later than usual, just in time for me to enter her class. Learn many things that we need to know. Talk to J about Yorkshire Terrier, really wanted to have one as my own. H asks me question regarding to our topic,which is unusual for me.
10:15am- Playing with Pou, he's so stubborn! Try few times to feed him, yet he flatly refused. (T.T)
1100- Having OOP class, Mdm. B really is something. She can explain the concept in ways that I can understand, without using any weird examples. At half past 12, she ask us to do programming and submit it before 1300h. What a tough job for me T.T In the end, just submit what I manage to code.
1330h- Waiting for my download to complete. Still fighting the urging to eat.
1400h- Going for ULAB class. Wait for mdm. S to come until 1500h, yet she didn't show up. Finally deciding to go back hostel.
1530h- Reaching hostel, the temptation to eat is so strong that I literally can't think of anything. In the end, decided to take a late afternoon nap. At around 1600h , heard someone knocking on my room but didn't bothered to get up and unlocked the door. Continue to dreamland.
1730h- Wake up and going online for almost 2 hours before J comes back from bookstore. J asks me if I've eaten or not, I said no. J gives me sushi for my dinner. Having nothing to explain to J about my plan, I silently accept it.
1930h- Still resisting to eat the sushi given earlier (just infront of me) but after like 30 minutes pass, couldn't refrain myself anymore. Gladly take the sushi and eat it rather hungrily.
The problem with it is, once we start to eat, we crave for more.
2030h- After finishing the rather delicious sushi, try to calm my body. It certainly wanting more than sushi. Being local to Borneo, it really hard for me to not eat rice even for a day. Thus, my body started to protest on me and after like 1 hours has passed, I hardly able to control my food craving anymore.
2130h- Go to H' room for instant noodles, gobble up 2 packets of instant noodles and a cup of nestle beverage. By then, feeling really guilty at not being able to control my hunger for food. Its a failure for the first day. Hopefully can get through the 2nd day.
I'm someone that have a really big appetite, so , going on a plan like this, not eating a whole day, is really a tough job for me. I wonder how people can handle such situation. Perhaps I do it for fun, that's why I didn't reach my goal. Maybe I should have a clear goal and big determination to do anything. I do have troubles when coming to concentration and focusing. After all, I dwell in my imagination world more often than I should. =.=
### THIS NEVER WORK FOR ME####
