I know that nobody perfect and I know that everyone has their share of problems. I know that everything that we see and heard always has the co-relation with us, either strong or not, the relationship is always there. Our surrounding tell us many things, for those that has a good observation, they will understand lots of things, and for those that just pass things that surround them, there's a chance that they miss chances that is there for them.
I realized this more and more when problems and troubles haunting me everyday and everywhere. I once hate it and thought that what an unlucky person I am to be here in this world. But, as time pass by, I grow up. I grow up from my problems, from my troubles. I have grown so much that some people think I completely changed. I would prefer to think that I just evolved.
Those problems and troubles didn't from all these years, and yet to come, I probably have a different view on it. A view that makes me grow to my endless potential. I want to be someone that I know and loved. want to be a useful person, a person that can understand people feelings and emotions. I think it's because I love to understand humans and their behavior, or more importantly, it's because I love people.
There's many interesting people in this world. People that easily understandable, people that takes time to understand and people that has that one unique characteristics. Humans are capable of many feelings, humans are expendable. This is what makes me interested in studying people. Because we are the one that resides in the highest hierarchy of the pyramid in this world. That what makes it more and more interesting.
But, much is said than done, I am only a mere observer in my surrounding. I don't like to involved myself with my observations, lest that they will get distracted. I only involved in my observation when I found it really interesting and that I needs more data for information gathering. Involvement in such observation is necessary for observations that coated themselves with numerous protective layers that shield their true self.
While its true that not all of the observations are completed, but most of the data gathered had helped me to see things in life in much broader perspective. For example, being in broken family, I used to think negatively on my old man, but then, when I saw him work (I purposely asked him to take me to his workplace), I can say that I'm proud of what he's doing. The way he worked passionately really make me think that I can do better in being a human being.
I'm still searching my own-self , and I do hope that one day I be able to understand everything completely. Since knowledge is what I'm thirst on, I wish to fill myself with it. I'm improving myself and I hope that one day, when I looked back on my past, I can be smiling on my achievement.
Ninro
