- I have to deal with issues of my jealousy, even over a small matter.. Why do we easily get affected by simple things? Mood swing huh?
- I have to face monthly pain and stress; Menstrual cycle.. My biggest problem, hopefully it'll stop one day ( the pain & stress )..
- I have to go on diet and be careful with what I eat, since girl tends to over-grown quickly compare to guys.. I'm cute as in ( "I'm a BIG girl.." )..
- I have to look neat and tidy in front of people, oh so called "proper lady" is important in my society.. So that I would not degrade the honor of my family's name..
- I have to take a long time preparing myself, so that I'm presentable.. I'm a last minute person and a slow-mo, which apparently will make people go upset when they're in hurry..
- I have to protect my honor and dignity, since one simple "mistake" can meant a death penalty to me.. Tradition, uh, its more than that..
- Lastly, I'm just being jealous of guys out there, as they seem to take things easily in their hands and mostly enjoying their moment..
If there's a chance for me to choose my gender before I was born, I would like to be born as a boy.. Well,..
I don't know..
For me, being one of the Adams in this world would be fantastic..
I guess I have to accept the fact that I will never be a guy, no matter what..
So, I just have to look forward and being me as myself.. ^^
May the Almighty God forgive me for this..